More Pie

OK, so I ended up working from 4:30 am to about noon, then went home
and went to bed. Slept til early evening, baked a frozen lasagna and
had some pumpkin pie.

What was interesting is that even though I was up at least 24 hours I
wasn't really sleepy. I wasn't even that tired. I did notice my
thinking started getting a little muddy. I drove since I don't know
the busses at 4 am, and parked downtown ($20) and told myself driving
home to cool it, don't drive fast, take it easy. I didn't completely
trust myself.

I overstepped my authority yesterday and may have caused some
problems. I was trying to do the right thing but in retrospect it was
none of my business. So much for initiative.

Meanwhile, another crazy week. No days off. I think my lack of
assertiveness and my self-pity are getting into a kind of work
addiction situation. I'm avoiding my errands and chores and the rest
of my life. Maybe this is part of some kind of mid-life crisis. My
50th birthday is only a couple months away... I can't say I'm
completely happy with where my life is right now. But mostly I'm worn
out and sleep deprived... Must be the lasagna talking...